Everything I was doing wrong but nothing I was thinking wrong

I can finally feel me after so many years and I'm no more numb.

I can finally see everything the way it is and nothing is distorted anymore.

To be in this state of mind after so many years feels like a fresh air to me.

Everything that I had made complicated over the years wasn't as complicated as it became because I left so much within me  and it grew while nobody saw and I told none. 

I did so many things to control what was controlling me while thinking there was just one thing that was controlling me but it wasn't like that. 

I needed just few things to change and everyday and everything today would've been completely different seems magical to me when I think now.

So much of mess so much of stress completely hollow, all unnecessary. 

I can at least feel blessed that I'm still breathing and no more feeling like a dead fish in its own sea water. 

"Everything I was doing wrong but nothing I was thinking wrong."

It's a statement that says, "Things that I was thinking wrong wasn't wrong and whatever I was doing wrong was just the consequences of thinking that I was thinking wrong."

- so much to say continue in next post. 

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